every day my kids amaze me. malia is 4 and a half now. it's starting to be more obvious when she wants me to spend one on one time with her. so we sat and watched old disneyland trips. and it's when we watch home videos that i realize just how much she's grown in so little time. she still has that same sweetness about her that i hope she never outgrows. when it was time to go to bed, she asked me to stay for a few minutes, which i didn't mind because i was sleepy myself. so i sat beside her bed and put my head on her pillow with her. and she whispered,"i love you mama." of course i cried but she didn't see. she really is my joy, my malia joy.